Sunday, March 31, 2013

happy easter!

happy easter everyone!

we had a happy visit from the easter bunny +  fun festivities yesterday & celebrated the good news of the gospel today!

it has been an emotional day for me. so grateful to know that even on my most difficult days, i have a savior who is my best friend & my redeemer. my heart is full of gratitude for his life, sacrifice & resurrection. 

he lives. ♥

Monday, March 25, 2013

livy's favorite song

i sing this primary song to liv, every night i get the chance to tuck her in.
it's her very, very favorite of favorites.
tonight it seems particulary special....these words are true.
each day is a clean slate through repentance and trying again.
grateful that after a long mommy day,
i have a chance to be more patient tomorrow.

I like to look for rainbows whenever there is rain
And ponder on the beauty of an earth made clean again. 
I want my life to be as clean as earth right after rain.
I want to be the best I can and live with God again.

I know when I am baptized my wrongs are washed away,
And I can be forgiven and improve myself each day.
I want my life to be as clean as earth right after rain.
I want to be the best I can and live with God again. ♥

Thursday, March 21, 2013


an oldie but a goodie.
i know i've posted that quote more than once,
but it bears repeating.

i've had a theraputic few weeks.
been doing some reading, playing, relaxing.
working in the yard. {my happy place}
pondering. [not much on the schedule lately]
trying to appreciate and recognize my blessings. [i have lots]

i had an epiphany the other day in the garden - that most of my worries in life aren't about my main trials or my friends'/family's main trials. i worry about those too...but i take great security in the fact that the lord is guiding my life & it will all be okay in the end. i know that heavenly father will never forsake his children.

most of my worries in life are surrounded by the fear of how others perceive my motives, my actions, my words, my choices. *how silly is that?

hypothetical-ish example. if i had a money problem. i have faith that the lord will help me through the money problem and that all will be okay. i'm cool and at peace with the money problem. but i worry/obesses about whether people think i'm handling it this the responsible thing to do? what would dave ramsey think? why the heck do i even care what dave ramsey thinks?!? and the truth is: i will never really know what dave ramsey thinks. worrying about how others perceive me, is a battle i will never win.

i truly don't care if people think i'm cool. if i cared about being a cool kid, i wouldn't do half the things i do.

i worry most about people understanding my true heart & intentions.
my greatest vunerability is the fear of being misunderstood.
call it pride, or call it's something i've continually dealt with my whole adult life.

it's important for me to remind myself:
i have NO CONTROL over how other's percieve me.
i need to write that out a million times on a chalkboard bart simpson-style. 

we ALL make mistakes & perhaps i need to cut myself as much slack as i cut other people.

we are ALL different & that is what makes the world a beautiful, interesting place to be.

the lord's got it. he's in charge. he loves me unconditionally & understands me completely. my faith is in him & his beautiful plan of happiness...which i know has a place of glory for everyone who lives. he is my security. i know that any trial, health problem, financial worry, loss or disconnection i face will be made right through the enabling & healing power of christ's atonement. 

and i also know that his atonement reaches my greatest vunerablity: people. learning how to give and recieve empathy is a lesson i'm truly humbled by in life. i am grateful for the opportunity to sort through the eb & flow & experiences that come. with each challenge, i am stronger to face the next.

Thursday, March 7, 2013


q: did i just eat week-old enchiladas for 4th meal? were they beyond nasty?
a: yes & heck yes.

q: do i wish my entire wardrobe consisted of old cozy band tshirts & fuzzy track suits?
a: do i ever!

q: was i ticked that all my shows were re-runs this week?
a: guilty as charged.

q: do i go to bed on time, like a say to myself I WILL every.single.morning?
a: never.

q: does myron go to bed at {at least} 8:30 pm every night?
a: without fail

q: do i live in the chicken's backyard, or do the chickens live in my backyard?
a: i live in the chicken's backyard. they own me. #farmlife

q: do i love that spring break is next week?
a: not really. does that make me a bad mom? [rhetorical]

q: am i starting to eat/drink good again tomorrow?
a: yep..........try try again, all the days of my life. [detox = killjoy!]

q: do i have a mullet?
a: yes, trim & color on monday. counting down the minutes.

q: does this post sound bitter?
a: definitely not intended, but maybe.

Monday, March 4, 2013


my girls make me laugh.

the other day i woke up to chloe dressed as the cat in the hat. she surprised us with a whole day of seuss-themed activities planned, to celebrate dr. seuss' birthday. never a dull moment around here! thank goodness for the internet, we colored seuss themed printables, read every seuss book we own & watched the lorax. :) it was a fun day.

the weather has been absolutely beautiful lately, so i've been pulling weeds & de-wintering my yard. slowly, but surely. :) the girls play and play & it makes my heart so happy. i am so in love with those little ragamuffins. sure, they make me crazy....but they mostly just make me happy & color my life with joy every single day. livy's crazy bangs that she refuses to keep in a bow. chloe's giggle that is infectious. hugs a plenty & happiness to spare. i am so blessed & grateful to my heavenly father for these little angels. ♥